back…

Well, I’m back after a long ‘journey’ without computer. Graphic Card stopped totally and the brand didn’t knew how to solve my issue. Fortunately, cause I have e new machine. On the other hand my feeling when it comes to Fashion was a bit lost making this pause.

I’m trying to change. I changed the machine, and that’s my starting point, but I need more.

Some time in your life you ask yourself ‘Did I need something?’, and then you realize you already achieved what you really want, and after that, what you want more, is more! Not to gain titles, or become Miss ‘whatever’ (I passed that phase for some years now), or contests, but work in something that makes us happy and feeling fulfilled. I have the privilege to make something I love, and I refuse to stop: Photograph.

Many people doesn’t understand why I am that kind of narcissist person, and that’s a question I can answer easily. It’s not the case of being it, it’s because when I photograph, everything has a meaning and a certain feeling that I can’t catch on random people. Editing some other people picture, for me, doesn’t feel right, cause I didn’t catch his/her emotion, I catch a doll.

Other thing… I still don’t know what’s new, and what’s in vogue… If someone left or if everyone stayed. I feel I don’t belong, even after 5 years of sl.

Even after this 2 months out of SL, I feel like I lost my abilities to shoot (cause everything starts in-world, not on Photoshop). My will remains and I’m dying to start with something new, create a new Photography style, and a new style for myself, but seems like all of this, all of my photo skills and everything else, fade out.

I want to reach a next level, PERIOD!

Well… I definitely tried to shoot myself in a different way, the thing is, I lack inspiration for the moment. Regarding this, I promiss to come out with very own and unique pics… Just give me time!

Follow the next one:

DETAILS

HAIR | Lelutka – Lana – Irish Red

CAP & STOCKING | DIRAM – Chloe Cap – Red

EYELASHES | Glam Affair

SHOES | Baiastice – Knee Hight Platform Boots – Camel Suede

POSE | Del May

 

A vision

To be a photographer is more than just taking snapshots.

My daughter is doing her degree in photography in rl. She says she still doesn’t feel good about showing her work yet. I ask her why not frequently. She says she wants perfection. When she says that, I think to myself, if I wanted perfection, I wouldn’t even dare to take snapshots in SL.

But I’m not after perfection.

It’s not about how we shoot an object or a person. It’s how we feel when we see the photo. To capture a moment in a photo may take dozens of snapshots. All of a sudden, there is one single moment when light, expression, camara movement they all come together to create a vision.

For me, a photo is never a still moment. There are so many things happening there.

Obviously, fashion photographers in rl are an inspiration. It’s such an artistic expression of themselves, intrincate and elaborate and yet, in some cases, it’s just a photo. Sometimes one photo looks so simple that it’s we don’t even think of all the work done to create that vision. Hours and hours of work and pleasure behind one snapshot.

Among the so many amazing rl fashion photographers, I was drawn to Patrizio di Renzo and to his Pure Poison Collection. Inspired by him and with my own vision, I took my own photos in SL.

Through all this process, I found so many things about myself.
At first, as a SL Model, I payed photographers to have my own portfolio. Why wasn’t I doing my own photos? I looked at any image editor and thought I couldn’t do it. Working with photoshop scared me to death *laughs*. Then, I thought … why not? How would I ever find my own style, my own vision, if I were just there, posing and not actively shooting? Well, my daughter’s search for perfection came from somewhere, right? I was after perfection, too.

But what happens when that search for perfection just blocks our own creativity?
So, I put perfection aside and started shooting. With time, found my own style. As a SL photographer, what I want to convey is what my eyes see. If I shoot an avatar, I want to show him or her as they are inworld. If I shoot a place, I want people to see through my eyes, the shadows, the sky, the grass.
Most of all, when I shoot in SL I want people to feel.

Distance

I care

Dare

We have our ways to keep blocking ourselves from success. And it’s also in our hands to go ahead and not be afraid of what others may think of our work. We just have to keep in mind that we cannot please everybody. There will always be someone who doesn’t like our work.
And that’s what art is all about: to express yourself, share your vision. No fear :)

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